Do you ever get into a self-hating panic?

For example you realize that you've done or said something wrong, and feel quite bad about it (you don't normally worry about stuff like that so it comes as a shock), then you feel like you recover a bit, and have more conversations and perceive that you are doing the same mistakes, coming across as arrogant, and you feel like hitting yourself and calling yourself stupid and worthless when you know you shouldn't, and you start spiralling down into a rut, because you have momentarily lost sense of what is right and wrong from both your own point of view and other people, and other people just look at you and you don't know what they think and you think they think you're a weirdo and this just reinforces the negative feelings and suddenly you can't eat because you feel fat and guilty but you know that if you do eat it will make you feel better but hold on nobody cares so all this worrying is just making you look stupid which ...